I forgive you
You let me down and I forgave you.
You chose everyone else over me and
I forgave you.
You left me countless of times and I forgave you.
I can't cry over you anymore. Because of you I am afraid to openly love.
Afraid they may leave me too.
You broke promises and I forgave you.
Imagine a little girl waiting for her mommy to say she loves her.
Imagine waiting for her to come to pick you up and she never showed up.
Imagine being an adult waiting for her to chose you as a priority.
I fear being like you.
Imagine her waiting for her mommy to show up to her plays and award ceremonies.
Imagine a teenager making city officer of an organization and be the only one without a parent telling her she proud she is
Because of you I accepted you not being there each and every time.
The pain eats at me and I fake a smile, a laugh and yet again I forgive you.
I watch you walk away more than stay.
You never thought of me. You only thought of what was best for you. Because of you I ashamed of my past.
Because of you
I will not let this pain break me.
I will erase the hurt by forgiving you.
I will go on and pretend that you are perfect.
I will go on and wipe away the pain that I will not see you again.
For a moment I was a little girl standing in a grown woman body listening to you say I will not be there.
©2014 Tamyara Brown-Tamluvstowrite
Author Tamyara Brown
My love for writing is unconditional. It is my sanity in this crazy world.