FAT GIRL VIGILANTE-Insanity at its FINEST!
By Tamyara Brown
First Chapter Excerpt of Fat Novel
A BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION & MURDER
“I watched my mother murder my father and I didn’t stop her.”-
Ooh! I saw my mommy do something bad. We are supposed to be celebrating Daddy’s birthday. It turns into something totally different. I’ll never forget it as long as I live. We are driving for a long time. I saw a lot of different colored trees and mountains. The sky is blue, the sun is shining on my face and for some reason the air smelt like honeydew melons. In a fairytale, it’s a perfect day to pick strawberries, eat lunch and fish at the lake. Daddy love to fish and I love to pick strawberries. We pass a sign that read, “Welcome to Devil’s Hopyard State Park”.
On the radio playing is Oran Juice Jones song, “I saw you and him walking in the rain. You were holding hands and I will never be the same.”
Mama is singing the song, popping her fingers and bobbing her head. She looks at my daddy and tries to kiss him on the cheek.
Daddy jerks away from her and taps his fingers on the dashboard. He looks back at me and he starts smiling. He says, “My princess Bunny looks beautiful today.”
I wore my favorite pink sundress, my pink jelly sandals, and my hair is in three long ponytails. “Thank you, Daddy.” I pull at my barrette and twirl my hair around my finger.
“This is the best birthday gift, spending time with my favorite girl. I love you, Bunny.”
“I love you too, Daddy. It was all Mama’s idea to come out here.”
“I love you, Steven and nothing is too good for you.”
Daddy clenches his teeth. Mama attempts to hold his hand and he snatches it away from her. “I told you before I don’t want shit to do with your ugly, fat ass. I am only here to celebrate my birthday with my daughter. That’s the only way I get to see her if you tag along.” He folds his arms, stares out the window and mumbles under his breath. A black crow lands on the hood of the car.
Mama lowers her head, smooths her hand over her dress and sucks in her lips. “Why do you continue to disrespect me in front of our daughter? I just want to love you, Steven besides it is your birthday. For once, just try to be nice to me, please.”
New Edition was on the radio and Mama starts singing to Daddy,
“If you want to make things right
Love can make a way
If you want to take the time
Act like what you say, yeah
A little bit of love is all it takes
A little bit of love goes a long, long way
A little bit of love is all it takes.”
She sounds so good. I clap and Daddy starts laughing. His eyes go up and he says, “I can’t respect you because you don’t respect yourself. Look at you, in that raggedy ass dress. Fat spilling all over the place and looking like a big bag of shit.”
Mama's cheeks became red, she stops the car and parks by an old farm. She lowers her head, wipes the corner of her eyes and fidgets in her seat. Daddy continues talking. “What the hell was on my mind marrying you? It must have been because of the way you sing. It damn sure ain’t your looks!”
“I’m just trying to make you happy, Steven. I’m trying to get you to love me again, but you keep insulting me in front of our daughter.” She holds on to the steering wheel and starts shaking.
“You give me a reason to insult your ugly ass. I told you from the get-go, I only want to spend time with my daughter anyways. I don't want anything to do with you so stop singing and talking to me.”
He spits out the window. Mama pulls this long knife from the side of the seat then she raises her hand high. Then daddy turns his head and looks at her. My eyes got big. My heart is beating fast, she stuck the knife in his shoulder. She starts cutting and hitting him in the face. Daddy’s blood started squirting out all over the seats, the dashboard and even in my face, His body fell over and he lets out a loud scream. I look at daddy. He was all bloody and his nose is crooked. Mama got out of the car and open the door on daddy’s side. I scream and cover my face. Mama screams,
“Shut up, Michelle or you will be next.”
I put my hands over my mouth. The whole time Daddy is looking at me. I wanted to help him, but I’m scared. Mama didn’t look like mama. Her green eyes changed shape like a cat. Her skin is almost red and hair is sticking up everywhere. Mommy pulls down her panties and then she pees all over him.
“Now see what you made me do? You have awakened the beast, I pleaded with you to treat me with respect and treat me like a wife. I’m sorry, I didn’t want to hurt you. I just wanted to have a nice time and celebrate your day, with our daughter. She laughs and said, “a, isn’t this what an ugly, fat ass beast does? Pees wherever they want to and mark their territory? You are mine. It’s just sad I had to take a piss, for you to realize it.”
She pulls up her panties. She stares at him for a minute, then started rocking side to side singing, “Is this the End?”
“Is this the end? It seems to me you want to be free. You use to be mine when the chips were down.”
I follow her as she drags daddy by his feet. His body is covered in animal poop, hay, and dirt. I hung my head down and he looks at me. The barn is like the ones you see on T.V. It was hay all over the place. It was a mess and it had a whole in the roof. Mama told me to open the door, it squeaks.
A rusty folding chair sat in the middle of the barn and she throws him into it. She wraps the yellow rope around his body, she giggles as he screams for help. Daddy is too weak to run to save his own life, his left eye is swollen shut, his bone sticking out of his shoulder and blood running down his body. He is breathing loud, gasping for air and he finds the strength to say,
“Help, daddy please get someone.”
I stood there, I couldn’t move if I wanted to. I was frozen.
“I love you, Bunny. It’s okay, I know you’re scared!”
Sweat drips from my forehead, my clothes damp from tears, urine and the smell of animal poop in the air burns my nose. Daddy's blood falls in my mouth and in my eyes. Mama’s green eyes glow in the sun and she runs her tongue across her teeth. She took the red gas can and pours it all over him. She didn’t speak, her green eyes turn red and she keeps singing the Happy Birthday song.
My face covered in tears and blood. Mommy stood there and asks him,
“Do you love me?”
“It’s been over for us a long time. You know why, Pat. You are an evil fat Bitch. I love my daughter, but I will never love you for doing this to my baby. So you going to just kill me in front of her and mess her up?”
She laughs and looks over at me.
“Yes, I’m teaching her something important. You made a conscious decision to not love me. I deserve to be treated like a wife should. This is your choice, not mine to be killed by me in front of our daughter.”
“No, you know why. You did some foul shit.” He’s still breathing hard, sweat, blood, and poop drops off of him.
She cuts him off. “You fucked my best friend and made a baby with her. Just admit it. I promise I'm not going to be mad anymore. I just want the truth.” She put her hand behind her back. She starting going around the chair every so often looking at me and then him.
“I did it, okay. I made a mistake and I did a lot of things to hurt you. I am guilty of messing with Camilla. Yes, Nya is my daughter. Please, don’t kill me in front of our daughter, I’m begging you.”
She lowers her head, her hand trembles, she digs her feet into the dirt, and begins singing,
“Mama told me one day it was going to happen, but she never told me when. You told me it would happen when I was much older I wish it would have happened then.”
“You have secrets, you lied and no matter what you say she will always be my daughter. You fucked my.... Ugh.”
She kicks him in the face, smacks him with the gas can and then kisses him in the mouth. I look at Mama and then she looks at me. A single tear runs down her face. I'm trembling, my teeth chattering. It’s so hot but I am freezing. I am watching a scary movie starring my Mama and Daddy. She took the back of her hand and wipes her tear. She picks up the gasoline can and pours the rest all over him.
I want to stop her, at least say,
“Mommy stop hurting my Daddy, no more.”
I just cried like a baby. I try to cover my eyes, but she smacks my hand from my face. She makes me watch. I can’t believe what I’ve seen. “Don’t you dare cover your eyes I’m teaching you something, Chile.”
She bent down in front of my Daddy holding his ding-a-ling in her hand. She smiles at him and said,
“All I ever wanted you to do was love me the way I love you. Happy Birthday, Honey and rest in peace”.
Mama cuts off a piece of his ding-dinge screams. The cows surrounding the barn to moo. I watch as she picks it up, kisses it and put it in her pocket.
I cover my mouth so I won’t scream again. Mommy is scary and I don’t want to be next.
She said to me, “As long you’re fat no man will ever love you. It’s why after today I will work hard to lose the weight, take back my control. I vow no man or woman will ever again get away with hurting me.” Her eyes got big, and she says,
“Michelle, don’t you ever let anyone get away with making you feel worthless and let them live to see another day. You hear me, Chile? If you do, I will kill you myself? If anyone asks about your daddy you better say you haven’t seen or heard from him. I’ll roast you like the pig you are.”
“Yes, Ma’am” I whimper.
“Now tell your Daddy Happy Birthday, goodbye and I love you. After I kill your father, I’ll clean you up, take you to dinner and have a nice ice cream sundae for dessert.”
I shook my head. He was dying.
Mommy told me to leave the barn. I walk to the door and turn around. I see daddy whole body in orange and flames. He is screaming so loud. Mommy walks toward me and takes my hand. We walk out the barn and to the car. “Don’t look back. It is over the old me. Everyone who ever hurt me will feel the wrath of Fat Girl Vigilante.”
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